Envying people who can wing it right now. Just having one of those awkward moments where you realize the things you are chasing mean nothing. What the hell happened to me. I am so caught up with myself lately. I forget how important those connections to other people are. I wish I didn't worry so much about the little things. Little things that most of us are guilty of making into big things.
Success is important to me. I have made a couple steps closer. Everytime I do I realize how much more complicated success actually is to achieve. There is a very exact balance that needs to be achieved. A lot of pillars there to set the foundation. I never was good at juggling!
I didn't realize how strong that first law of attraction was between people and places I have been that kept me grounded. They are vital points on my road map. Still trying to connect the dots and figure out what it all is. They are chaotic and confusing with no real explanation, I feel this irrestible force to gravitate towards those points once visited only to veer off again in another direction to keep working on the puzzle.
How beautiful a place it would be to just wing it again. Nothing but a night full of endless possibilities with people who were just there to experience it with you. You only meet those people so many times in life. The ones who know the real you. The ones who help lay that foundation. It's weird how the times when I wasn't thinking about everything was when the best building blocks were set.
Sitting here thinking about my life... What an amazingly confusing experience. As confusing as it all is I am thankful for the challenge. I am not ready to forgive myself for all the misguided, stupid, ignorant choices I have made - but I am excited about learning from them. I think that is what makes things so great to experience. I just hope when the laws of attraction bring me back to those highly respected points of interest I can share my experiences and hear from others about their's.
My conclusion from this rambling is that I see a pilgrimage in my near future. I think I need to reconnect some dots. Seriously - Where is my mind! This is starting to go nowhere so I think I will end with a joke.
"A blonde calls her husband at work one day and asks him, "Can you help me when you get home?"
"Sure," he replies. "What's the problem?"
"Well, I started a really hard puzzle and I can't even find the edge pieces."
"Look on the box," he said. "There's always a picture of what the puzzle is."
"It's a big rooster," she said.
The husband arrives home and tells his blonde wife, "Okay, put the corn flakes back in the box."
