Will you be Forgotten?

"It's times like these, that you learn to live again." I guess that't the best way for to put things for now. I spent the last 6-8 monthes in an intricate, byzantine maze. For awhile, I had no sense of direction. I was just taking it all in, and waiting for something to jump out and grab me, to say "this is the way to go." But, the thing is, I had been feeling lost in a way. Now, I'm realizing that it isn't so much that I am lost, as much as it is exploring the unknown.

I know I speak about life, and having my world flipped upside down alot, but that is what this stage of my life is. I'd feel wrong not writing about. Thing is, I know I am not the only one experiencing the vast series of dilemas, and uncertainty. It is something that is an ongoing process from here on out in most of our lives. It's the "spread your wings" theory. We have had people showing us the way for our entire life, up until now. Now is the time to understand the way things work on your own. Make your own decisions, your own conclusions, and step and become you.

I have always said there is so much out in the world to experience, and I don't say that just to say it. I thought I was me back home, but stepping out of the norm, and experiencing "the path less traveled", and making my own path, has taught me so much that i never knew about myself. Being afraid of the things you may lose, or the things you don't know is no reason to stay in your familiar place. I guess its like a house plant, compared to a tree in the forest. Wait to be watered and hope someone doesn't forget, or take your chances in the forest, where so many trees and plants are growing towards the skies, and are surviving outside of your sheltered home.

Trust me, the things you hold most so close to you, will always be there. Your closest friends, your memories, and in my case, those things have become so much more important.

I just think everyone needs time alone, time to breath, and time to think. To many people let there comfort control them. Those people never let go. For me, the only way to let go was to leave.

For now, I just keep on going, taking it all in. Going with the flow, and not holding on to the things or people that got lost, and forgot who they were, and will be forgotten. I don't try and never tried to hide from anyone I knew, or disguise myself as someone i wasn't. I will never ignore the things and people who made me who I am. You are always who you are, here, or there, people will see you despite the clothes you wear, and the music you listen to. You can only build on the life you lived your whole life, don't try and start over, cause you will get lost. And people will never come looking, because you will be forgotten....

The rest, is unspoken for now...