And this one is of me.. Kinda silly eh? My user name was SmellyNebula and the Dr.'s was ImKool. The link is called "Robot Skull".

A pic I found of Dr. Gonzo. This was from an old forum-type chatting web thingy.

Psychedelic Astronaut.. Another random Photoshop adventure

Dear Diarrhea.

Dear Diarrhea,

Oh how wonderful you make me feel.
Sliding through my intestines, making me ill.
I just can't wait until I can privately fill,
The toilet which I will soon kill.
With the last final push comes some relief,
But the feeling is quite brief.
Followed by shockwaves of pain,
Sent directly to this fragile brain.
Dear diarrhea, you tease and you take,
But I'll do a courtesy flush for my own sake.

Thanks Diarrhea For Everything..

HAH, time for class.

Random Thought: "Pass the Split-Pea soup Grandma."

Will you be Forgotten?

"It's times like these, that you learn to live again." I guess that't the best way for to put things for now. I spent the last 6-8 monthes in an intricate, byzantine maze. For awhile, I had no sense of direction. I was just taking it all in, and waiting for something to jump out and grab me, to say "this is the way to go." But, the thing is, I had been feeling lost in a way. Now, I'm realizing that it isn't so much that I am lost, as much as it is exploring the unknown.

I know I speak about life, and having my world flipped upside down alot, but that is what this stage of my life is. I'd feel wrong not writing about. Thing is, I know I am not the only one experiencing the vast series of dilemas, and uncertainty. It is something that is an ongoing process from here on out in most of our lives. It's the "spread your wings" theory. We have had people showing us the way for our entire life, up until now. Now is the time to understand the way things work on your own. Make your own decisions, your own conclusions, and step and become you.

I have always said there is so much out in the world to experience, and I don't say that just to say it. I thought I was me back home, but stepping out of the norm, and experiencing "the path less traveled", and making my own path, has taught me so much that i never knew about myself. Being afraid of the things you may lose, or the things you don't know is no reason to stay in your familiar place. I guess its like a house plant, compared to a tree in the forest. Wait to be watered and hope someone doesn't forget, or take your chances in the forest, where so many trees and plants are growing towards the skies, and are surviving outside of your sheltered home.

Trust me, the things you hold most so close to you, will always be there. Your closest friends, your memories, and in my case, those things have become so much more important.

I just think everyone needs time alone, time to breath, and time to think. To many people let there comfort control them. Those people never let go. For me, the only way to let go was to leave.

For now, I just keep on going, taking it all in. Going with the flow, and not holding on to the things or people that got lost, and forgot who they were, and will be forgotten. I don't try and never tried to hide from anyone I knew, or disguise myself as someone i wasn't. I will never ignore the things and people who made me who I am. You are always who you are, here, or there, people will see you despite the clothes you wear, and the music you listen to. You can only build on the life you lived your whole life, don't try and start over, cause you will get lost. And people will never come looking, because you will be forgotten....

The rest, is unspoken for now...

the shroom

MMMmmmm!

This is a picture I took right by the Cheese Cake Factory downtown Chicago. Right around that special time of the year.. when you buy presents for people you think are important. HHAAHA

This is one of my few attempts in Photoshop. Kind of sad and lame but perhaps not.. you decide.

And this is why i hate spiders... Because, its one thing to see these big boys once in awhile, but this is 2 of 3 i have seen in less than a week here. The biggest one... got away... seriously.

ok... The mud stick comment.. hopefully this picture here is some clarification on that.

A Little Something Called Life

normally i struggle throughout the day, combating thoughts that bring me down. but nowadays, my thoughts are on other, more important things.. like my own well-being. ive concentrated on everyone except me. and if i put more effort into making myself better, i wouldn't need to worry about how i treat people because i would be that guy in the midst, entertaining your family, laughing and bring the group up... i've had no real social life for some time now and that's is in the process of changing. i'm becoming me finally. free-willed, humorous, intelligent, and self-sufficient.
oh i can't wait until i rid myself of the negative things.

i've learned an important lesson in my life.
your not the person you think you are. your not the material things you surround yourself with, or the things you brag about to the opposite sex. you are the challenges you face. you are the troubles in your life. and the person you are depends on how you face everyday challenges.

and more importantly, your not the mask you hide behind. I've seen way too many people that act completely different around different groups or even individuals. its sick. be yourself, not what someone wants.
Who The Hell Are You Trying To Impress??
Bah.

anyway, if you find yourself in the slumps, pick yourself up and move on. you shouldn't worry your life away. try playing your life by ear for a while.
make plans like college, vacations, friends. but if something spontaneous happens, jump on its back and ride it.
hippie talk.

well i lost the direction of this blog but i guess that's what it's for.

Adios.

Random Thought: Dr. Gonzo licks mud sticks.

All things said and done. Life is a crazy bowl soggy cereal. Thats the best description i could come up with at this point in time. I'm not even sure if it makes sense. But nonetheless, with simple neurotic expressions like that, you can tell, my mind is like life, and has gone to shit.

Just been a long phase of change after change, and new situation to new situation, and new people, to newer people, and after awhile your brain just stops reacting to the new information. But it all keeps coming at you, new names, new places, new things to study, and all of which your supposed to be comprehending because they are all real important. But instead, i find myself doing the "smile and nod" and walking away going, ill ask about all that stuff tomorrow.

The small ironic part of my life, is that i yearn for success, but in the truth behind the mystery, im a truely lazy relaxed person. And i wish i could be a millionaire by sleeping all day. But i realized throughout high school that sleep doesnt make you rich, so, im trying the plan B. Which is a pain in the ass. Society has made life horrible for the inhabitants of this fine country, and planet. Work hard, make money, waste your life, only so you can afford your own god damn death. Sad, Sad, Sad

Anyways, random vent there. Felt like i had more to offer, something... delicious to the mind, something to divuldge yourselves in...but, i decided to poop out this turd of crap.

Anyways, pictures are fun! check them out, come back soon, as there will be more pictures and fun from the captain and the doctor.

My new jeep!!

Party night in the Irish Pub in Florida

HURRAY

YEAH! i got the links back!
Hurray!

html is tricky.
tricky like that guy from mr. deeds.

Random Thought:
i am just a new born,
a stranger in this town.
where are all the good times?
who's gonna show this stranger around..

The Time Has Come

well, the time to post again has finally come. today is a big day. i just found out ive been replaced at my old job. then not even 3 hours later.. i get offered an even better job. im no longer a picture framer, but a cook at the restaurant down the street. ill also be making around 2 whole dollars more. TWO WHOLE DOLLARS!!@#.
"movin on up" (movin on up),
"to the east side"
"we finally got a piece of the pie"
i think thats how it goes.
who cares..
oh yeah.. tonight is also important because my good friend BBrent is coming back into town and he brought a little something with him. my pupils will be very dilated tonight folks. G. G. G. Great fun tonight!

blah, anyway, im gonna go paint and listen to some up beat tones yaaaaal.
take care eh.

Random Thought(s):
me : i need more jennas in my life
me : sopdnfsd
jenna : i am few and far between
jenna : im not goin to lie.. pick of the litter right here
me : lol
me : you said it
jenna : you should come live with me
jenna : it would be great
me : we could be true sis and bro
jenna : yes, we could use the same hyperdermic needles
me : hell, theres nothing for me here.. i was considering transferin
jenna : and rub our blood together
me : gross jenna
jenna : LOL
me : there goes the line
me : haha
jenna : hahahahahaa
jenna : even online i go away from it
me : ive been smiling for like 10 mins now
me : thanks asshole