Freak Ship

Okay. I'm going to try something new. There may be errors.

i started driving home last night. i didnt expect things to get so out of hand. laura and las vegas just were not working for me. the only thing i could think about was my reponsiblities. my job.. my wife.. i havnt talked to her three weeks now. i almost regret walking away from it that saterday. although i know i wouldnt miss the weather. i dont know what will happen when i show up at the front door in these dirty clothes.
i just hope she will take me back. according to my math, i should be somewhere in colorado by now. its 6 am and the sunrise coming over the rockys is beatiful. theres some snow on the ground but nothing my dakota cant handle.
the gas gauge is on e. thats definately no good. i havnt seen a gas station as long as i can remember. billboards clutter the landscape. advertising health care plans and special deals on sunglasses. so sad how the world is today.
the winnings at the casinos wernt too bad but thats thanks to black jack of course. theres something about that game that ive always been able to sense. "hit me" i said as i looked at my hands. "nineteen" said the tall emotionless gentleman handing out cards. "ill stay" i said, still looking at my hands. i closed my eyes as the rush of warm air filled the room. in silence i sit and wait for the dealer. "you win sir" said the gentleman. four red chips and one blue. 300 dollars just like that. i left the table to get myself a drink. double scotch and a lemon. dont ask me why, i just love the citrus after burning the hell out of my throat.
oh yeah, back to the road. i checked the time again and it was 6:24. i forgot to set my watch ahead but i dont see a point in doing that anyway. I believe that worrying about time too much causes stress. lots of it too.
the sky is full of yellows and different hues of blue. *clunk clunk* *chug*. well there goes the last reserves of gas. catching up on sleep, i have found, is the best mental releaf one can have.
i didnt dream much, i never did. but when i do remember my dreams, i can usually control them. thats called lucid dreaming or something to that effect.

Maybe I will write more about this later.
Maybe not.

Random Thought: Never take advantage of the ones that care about you, it will only hurt more in the end.